wordless wednesday [2] when panic attacks

tujuh ramadhan

since kecik, ayah & mak ajar kitorang puasa

wajibkan puasa, and kitorang ikut

though of course sometimes tu ade jugak la cheating

bukak peti minum air sejuk straight from botol

especially time skolah petang sebab pagi tu banyak time bley lari masuk dapur

and malam plak, kitorang kene ikut pegi terawih

kalau tak ikut pun, boleh terawih sendiri kat rumah

but most of the time, mmg kene ikut gi masjid unless berjaya come up dgn reason hebat

macam saket perut, or pening kepala sangat-sangat

apa2pun mmg kena jugak habiskan 8 rakaat terawih and 3 rakaat witir

sometimes tu bila ade geng, ade jugak aku lari pegi playground dekat penjara pengkalan chepa tu

memang best slides kat situ, laju habis especially kalau guna sejadah

banyak kali jugak la escape a few rakaat and pergi melalak kat situ

sampai lah kantoi with ayah and kene marah so tak pergi dah

dalam bulan puasa, ayah & mak nak kitorang khatam satu Quran

so diorang cakap, kalau habis satu juzuk, dpt sepuluh ringgit

so sebab nak dapat kan duit raya banyak plus tiga ratus ringgit

kitorang pun berlumba-lumba la baca Quran

bangun pagi je baca Quran

everytime lepas solat je, baca Quran

rasa lapar petang je baca Quran

malam lepas moreh je baca Quran

lepas main  bunga api pun baca Quran

and memang confirm lah akan sempat habis 30 juzuk and dapat reward as promised

time salam raya tu memang sangat puas hati and bangga

sekarang masing-masing dah besar

mak pun dah takde

and kitorang pun tak duduk dengan ayah except for abang

so takde siapa2 lagi nak suruh, nak ingatkan, nak pesankan

tapi alhamdulillah

berkat usaha mak & ayah

kitorg cuba nak fully utilize bulan puasa ni

harini tujuh ramadhan

terawih masih full

and Quran plak pagi tadi dah habiskan sampai juzuk 9

petang ni nak masuk 10 insyaAllah

thank you ayah, thank you mak

and mostly thank you Allah sebab still bagi chance nak rasa ramadhan

to mak, i miss you we all miss you

semoga mak tenang and happy kat sana

semoga mak ditempatkan di kalangan orang-orang beriman dan diredhai Allah

ameen

wordless wednesday [1] as the bell rings

habuk

it has been awhile now

(tiup habuk)

too many things had happened for the past few months

and now that im home (almost all the time)

guess i will start blogging again

toodles!

comelness

:D



gym on mandomonday

Managed to drag my lazybum to gym, (finally!) after a very loooong unnecessary break.

And I met a friend.
Whom I just met once (i think so) 5 months ago since he's a friend to my best friend.

As we talked.
He happened to be a close friend to my boyfriend's bestfriend.
Whom happened to be my boyfriend's friend too.

And all of us happened to work in KJ.
So we decided to have a lunch together at tasek this afternoon.
(sbp reunited ;p)

So yeah.
Its a small world after all.

greys anatomy quote 2

"I want to marry you. I want to have kids with you. I want to build us a house. I want to settle down and grow old with you. I want to die when I'm 110 years old, in your arms. I don't want 48 uninterrupted hours. I want a lifetime."
Derek Shepherd, Greys Anatomy

Yes. I want to marry you, have kids with you. I want us to build a house together. I want to settle down and grow old with you. I want to die when im 110 years old in your arms. I dont want these 10 interrupted hours at the office. I want a lifetime.

Thank you for being there. Thank you for everything.

XOXO.

A change for life

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shopahola

Lets change for a better way of living.
Love.

of bawals and tieracks

Guess i have been wearing tieracks for so long now

Cos i think they are so pretty

And the fact that i dont have to iron them :)

Thinking of going back to my bawals

When i tried the long rambu-ramba shawls

And tadaaaaaa...

 



My first attempt (kott.. ;p)

With love.



rasa macam nak

rasa macam nak, tapi..

ermm..

should i?

maybe

ermm..

why not kan

okay lah

hopefully it turns out better this time

:)

happy birthday

the day is here again

and it has been 7 times now without u

i miss u mak

all of us do

if u should know, i could still remember how u smell

and yes, we still keep ur perfume in ur crystal cabinet

we only use it during raya

so we could feel that ur there with us

may u rest in peace mak

may we meet again in that eternal bliss

insyaAllah

happy birthday mak

missing u a thousand times more now

with all the love in the world

hugs and kisses

alfatihah

greys anatomy quote 1

"You can waste your time drawing lines or you can live your life crossing them"
Meredith Grey, Greys Anatomy

Everyday, we make decisions. Whether to step or not to. Whether to run or not to. Whether to eat alot and regret or maintain a healthy diet. Whether to sleep early or late. Whether we realise it or not, we do make alot of decisions a day. And as an ordinary creature, we tend to draw lines in making decisions. Well drawing lines is of course a good practice so we dont go overboard in certain things. But people sometimes draw too big a line that they cant even live their lives. This is when drawing lines is good but only to some extent.

Lets say for instance, in relationship. You love that someone yet you are scared to say it out loud. Maybe for the sake of your friendship. Or maybe to avoid self embarrassment? Or you are just not ready to be rejected and heartbroken. But your heart keeps on pushing you to just go for it. Call him! Text him! Make surprises! Sometimes we think too much of little things like this. You greet him first, he thinks you're friendly, you sit next to him, he thinks you like him. You say you like him, he thinks you're too easy. You say you hate him, he thinks you’re arrogant. You express your love, he thinks you're cheap. With all those in mind, things will eventually get complicated when they are actually not.

You can keep on drawing lines, but sometimes you have to try crossing them. You wont know how sweet the sugar is if you don’t taste any. You have to get yourself drowned a few times before you can start swimming. Well at least I have crossed mine. Quite a few times actually. Sometimes both ways. Regrets and stupid moments, they passed. Enjoying life, that’s exactly what I am doing.

Don’t think too much. Your life your way, after all you’re the one driving it. Follow your heart, pursue your dreams. Just go! Seriously.

Cross the line.

a phase

It has been long. Since my 25th birthday or should I say the most hectic painful day I had to go through. I was too hurt to talk about it. If you must know, your intention to hurt me succeeded with flying colors. Beyond words.

But seriously it was just a short phase. I am all good now. Am thankful with everything I have. Blessed with all the love showered.

Just go away. Yes, please do.